I’m so glad that I’m so appreciated in this house.
Like I just can’t deal with this. Why I hate going out with people I don’t want to end up staying the night at a bunxh of guys house and not even get a kiss or something like don’t just male out in front of me damn you do this every time. Like you say you aren’t a slutty drunk but you are. Like I’m not a whore nor do I ever flirt and when I try to it never works out cause my roommates are with me and they are pretrier. Life sucks sometimes I hate being the ungly friend.
Now I remember why I don’t go out with my roommate. She gets drunk and starts to Fuck with everyone. Like stop being a whore. Damn like lets make me feel worse cause I have to see that. Forever fucking single.
Bud light lime, friends, and Ihop, makes for a great night!!! Feeling good! Turn up!!)
I’m so sick of feeling this way. And I know my friends are at the point where they are probably tired of me asking for help. Like I know they are trying to help and but sometimes instead of them just telling me to do this and this and telling me that God can fix it if I give it to him, which I know he can but I know that I’m still going to have these days it sucks. Because sometimes you just want someone to come to your room and hold you till you cry yourself to sleep but that doesn’t happen they just tend to make me feel worse about myself and my situation because they tell me those things even though they are true. I’m almost at 10 months without cutting but Its like whats the point if I continue to have these thoughts. I’m tired of being unhappy and the more I continue to feel this way the worse my depression is getting again and the closer I am to cutting and I honestly just want to give up. I just want all the bad things because they are so much easier to give into. Fighting is too hard and I always give up anyway I know its going to happen why not just shorten the process. I’m just tired. Tired of trying to be happy when I’m not. I’m tired of being someone that I’m not.
I ACCIDENTALLY MADE THE CUTEST COOKIE IN THE WHOLE WORLD YESTERDAY.
A Day to Remember - The Downfall of Us All